珀尔

我想有好多好多人喜欢我
to be loved from as many people as possible
以此弥补我这么多年来的苦难
to make up for all my time spent suffering.
有时我夜半惊醒
Sometimes I wake in the middle of the night
恐惧就会汹涌而来要是我就这样过一辈子了呢
and the fear washes over me,'cause what if this is it?
要是我就是属于这里呢
What if this is right where I belong?
我是个失败
I'm a failure.
我不漂亮
I'm not pretty
我天生不够友善让人喜欢不起来
or naturally pleasant, or friendly.
我又愚笨
I'm not smart,
又无趣又自卑
or funny, or confident.
妈妈说的一点没错我就是软弱
I'm exactly what Mama said I was, weak.
我不懂为什么我到底做了什么？
I don't know why. What did I do?
为什么我的家庭不像你的那样
Why wasn't my family like yours?
我恨我自己为什么不能像你一样
I hate what it feels like to be me and not you.

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