A summary of some impressive details. I love it so much.

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神父第一次見fleabag,在餐廳外:fuck you then!

第四集裡,教堂裡的耶稣畫像兩次摔下去。神父:i love it when he does that!

神父看穿她的absence (in the play)。有那麼一次他甚至也随着Fleabag看向鏡頭。

Belinda和fleabag在酒吧裡的對話,灑脫爽快,高蹈輕盈,居然和她姐姐全然不同。題外話:這位也是苦月亮的女主之一(or女配?),所以她的角色就總是給人驚喜?

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長椅上:What if you meet someone you like?

-- I talk and drink and laugh and give them Bibles, and hope they eventually leave me alone.

-- What if you meet someone you love?

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Fleabag教堂裡的告解,全劇最喜歡的一段: I want someone to tell me what to wear in the morning. No, I want someone to tell me what to wear every morning. I want someone to tell me what to eat, what to like, what to hate, what to rage about, what to listen to, what band to like, what to buy tickets for, what to joke about, what not to joke about. I want someone to tell me what to believe in, who to vote for, and who to love, and how to tell them. I just think I want someone to tell me how to live my life, because so far I think I've been getting it wrong.

然後神父:Kneel. JUST kneel.

And then they make out in the church.

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Priests have sex, you know. 她說。我想起bluets裡maggie nelson說的:When I imagine a celibate man -- especially one who doesn't even jerk off -- I wonder how he related to his dick: what else he does with it, how he handles it, how he regards it.

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神父最後的speech:

Love is awful. It's awful. It's painful. It's frightening. Makes you doubt yourself, judge yourself. Distance yourself from the other people in your life. Makes you selfish. Makes you creepy. Makes you obsessed with your hair. Makes you cruel. Makes you say and do things you never thought you would do. It's all any of us want and it's hell when we get there.

So, no wonder it's something we don't want to do on our own. I was taught if we're born with love, then life is about choosing the right place to put it. People talk about that a lot. It feeling right. When it feels right it's easy. But I'm not sure that's true. It takes strength to know what's right. And love isn't something that weak people do. Being a romantic takes a hell of a lot of hope.

I think what they mean is, when you find somebody that you love, it feels like hope.

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And of course the ending:

I love you.
-- it'll pass.
-- i love you too.

狐狸總歸出現了。小雕像也拿走了。她也對着鏡頭揮了揮手。

And in the end we have to deal with our loneliness by ourselves anyway.