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One woman, one house, one piece of land to call your own, one landscape to look at, one way to die. All that world just weighing down on you. You don't even know where it comes to an end.
愛一個女人，住一間屋子，買一塊地，望一個景，走一條死路。太多選擇，我無所适從，漫無止境，茫茫無際。
―― 電影《海上鋼琴師》
他是一個音樂天才，生于船長于船，屬于船。琴鍵與音符是他對這個世界最純粹和自由的表達，他們彼此成就，和諧共生。尤之于魚和水，水與魚。
他愛上過一個女孩兒，如同情窦初開的所有年輕人一樣，怦然心動，憧憬，夢想，行動，執着的尋找，甚至在她熟睡中親吻了她；他想送她他那唯一的一張唱片，可怯懦，下雨，猶豫，最終被湧來的人分開，離散，永别。盡管女孩兒臨别前告訴了他地址，他有了一切重新開始的想法，并付諸于行動，他和生他養他的船上的所有人告别，他的好朋友還送了他漂亮的駝絨大衣，他整裝出發，做好了一切要離開的準備，可最終止步于船舷中央
他說：
“All that city. You just couldn't see the end to it. The end? Please? You please just show me where it ends? It was all very fine on that gangway. And I was grand too, in my overcoat. I cut quite a figure. And I was getting off. Guaranteed. There was no problem. It wasn't what I saw that stopped me, Max. It was what I didn't see. You understand that? What I didn't see. In all that sprawling city there was everything except an end. There was no end. What I did not see was where the whole thing came to an end. The end of the world... ” （所有那些城市，你就是無法看見盡頭。盡頭？拜托！拜托你給我看它的盡頭在哪？當時，站在舷梯向外看還好。我那時穿着大衣，感覺也很棒，覺得自己前途無量，然後我就要下船去。放心！完全沒問題！可是，阻止了我的腳步的，并不是我所看見的東西，而是我所無法看見的那些東西。你明白麼？我看不見的那些。在那個無限蔓延的城市裡，什麼東西都有，可惟獨沒有盡頭。根本就沒有盡頭。我看不見的是這一切的盡頭，世界的盡頭。” ）
“鍵盤有始有終，你确切知道 88 個鍵就在那兒，錯不了。它并不是無限的，而音樂，才是無限的。你能在鍵盤上表現的音樂是無限的，我喜歡這樣，我能輕松應對。 ! ”
“Take a piano. The keys begin, the keys end. You know there are eightyeight of them, nobody can tell you any different. They are not infinite. You are infinite. And on these keys the music that you can make is infinite. I like that. That I can live by.
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Land? Land is a ship too big for me. It's a woman too beautiful; it's a voyage too long, a perfume too strong. It's a music I don't know how to make. I could never get off this ship. At best, I can step off my life. After all, I don't exist for anyone. You're an exception, Max, you're the only one who knows I'm here. You're a minority, and you better get used to it. Forgive me, my friend, but I'm not getting off.”
他不會下船的，他的生命屬于那所船。
這就是天才的思維，天才的想法，天才才會做的事，他是凡間的精靈，他不屬于這個俗世。他可以在有限的琴鍵上用表達音樂的無限性，而不願意也不能被一人一房一田去局限；他依附于那一艘一次搭載2000人的有限的船，而不能融入到看不到盡頭的有太多選擇的無限的城市，街道，這是他――天才的“1900”的超然人生。
生于厮，長于厮，生生世世，為之而生，生而為之。足矣。
