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One woman, one house, one piece of land to call your own, one landscape to look at, one way to die. All that world just weighing down on you. You don't even know where it comes to an end.
爱一个女人，住一间屋子，买一块地，望一个景，走一条死路。太多选择，我无所适从，漫无止境，茫茫无际。
―― 电影《海上钢琴师》
他是一个音乐天才，生于船长于船，属于船。琴键与音符是他对这个世界最纯粹和自由的表达，他们彼此成就，和谐共生。尤之于鱼和水，水与鱼。
他爱上过一个女孩儿，如同情窦初开的所有年轻人一样，怦然心动，憧憬，梦想，行动，执着的寻找，甚至在她熟睡中亲吻了她；他想送她他那唯一的一张唱片，可怯懦，下雨，犹豫，最终被涌来的人分开，离散，永别。尽管女孩儿临别前告诉了他地址，他有了一切重新开始的想法，并付诸于行动，他和生他养他的船上的所有人告别，他的好朋友还送了他漂亮的驼绒大衣，他整装出发，做好了一切要离开的准备，可最终止步于船舷中央
他说：
“All that city. You just couldn't see the end to it. The end? Please? You please just show me where it ends? It was all very fine on that gangway. And I was grand too, in my overcoat. I cut quite a figure. And I was getting off. Guaranteed. There was no problem. It wasn't what I saw that stopped me, Max. It was what I didn't see. You understand that? What I didn't see. In all that sprawling city there was everything except an end. There was no end. What I did not see was where the whole thing came to an end. The end of the world... ” （所有那些城市，你就是无法看见尽头。尽头？拜托！拜托你给我看它的尽头在哪？当时，站在舷梯向外看还好。我那时穿着大衣，感觉也很棒，觉得自己前途无量，然后我就要下船去。放心！完全没问题！可是，阻止了我的脚步的，并不是我所看见的东西，而是我所无法看见的那些东西。你明白么？我看不见的那些。在那个无限蔓延的城市里，什么东西都有，可惟独没有尽头。根本就没有尽头。我看不见的是这一切的尽头，世界的尽头。” ）
“键盘有始有终，你确切知道 88 个键就在那儿，错不了。它并不是无限的，而音乐，才是无限的。你能在键盘上表现的音乐是无限的，我喜欢这样，我能轻松应对。 ! ”
“Take a piano. The keys begin, the keys end. You know there are eightyeight of them, nobody can tell you any different. They are not infinite. You are infinite. And on these keys the music that you can make is infinite. I like that. That I can live by.
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Land? Land is a ship too big for me. It's a woman too beautiful; it's a voyage too long, a perfume too strong. It's a music I don't know how to make. I could never get off this ship. At best, I can step off my life. After all, I don't exist for anyone. You're an exception, Max, you're the only one who knows I'm here. You're a minority, and you better get used to it. Forgive me, my friend, but I'm not getting off.”
他不会下船的，他的生命属于那所船。
这就是天才的思维，天才的想法，天才才会做的事，他是凡间的精灵，他不属于这个俗世。他可以在有限的琴键上用表达音乐的无限性，而不愿意也不能被一人一房一田去局限；他依附于那一艘一次搭载2000人的有限的船，而不能融入到看不到尽头的有太多选择的无限的城市，街道，这是他――天才的“1900”的超然人生。
生于厮，长于厮，生生世世，为之而生，生而为之。足矣。
